i am not your jackpot but your joker, casually playing the game under the pretence that “i love you” could never sound so awful again. even the sweetest goodbye could not soothe my aching veins or comfort the dull thud, thud, thudding of my heart. nor can the bitter grinding of my teeth numb the discomfort of a year of life seeping through my being, out into the harsh reality of change. never before have i felt such ecstasy through heartbreak. i am not your jackpot but your joker, casually wishing you the stars in the sky and hoping “i love you” stops sounding so awful in my head.
hi, i'm sarah. i write because otherwise my head becomes too crowded. all of these words amount to moments i've lived or people i've loved.
“with time, i will fade from this universe, but i hope that when you look to the night sky, you see my crooked smile in the crescent moon. hear my laugh as the fireflies dance and glow in the summer heat. feel my embrace in your darkest of hours and know that when i whispered “forever,” i meant i’d never leave. i’ll live on in your heart, as infinite as the stars.” - gabrielle green.
p.s all of my writing is tagged under "original work".
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