i’m a heartbeat away from breaking, from suffocating in my own screaming and gasping for breath under the nightmares of darker times and lost friends. i am in the sea and you’re the only solid thing for miles. you do not break under my touch nor do you flinch when i grasp out during rushed sentences and damning words. in the silence you bestow, i take long breaths, unravel my fears and swim to the shore. it’s a quiet comedown and i’m a heartbeat away from loving. i know that if you sink, i’ll quite happily drown.